Train Wisely

Most people wouldn't just wake up one day and decide to run a marathon.  Training for a marathon takes months of dedication and tireless training.  You start out with short distances and slowly (and wisely) train your body for the big race.  Before you run that race most likely you will try your hand at a 5K, 10K, and a half marathon.  These races are “trials” if you will.  They give you the ability to be tested and see how you handle the race setting.

Psalms 25:4-5

Show me the right path, O LORD; point out the road for me to follow.  Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me.

In my experience most people, on their first race, learn a hard lesson about pacing ones self.  You get excited about the atmosphere and the seasoned runners take off at the gun and you do your best to maintain that incredible pace only to find yourself exhausted by the first mile.  This is a learning experience that prepared you for every race you will run from that point forward.  Each new distance race becomes a valuable lesson, that better prepares you for the marathon.

1 Corinthians 13:7

Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstances.

These races are the trials, and to prepare for the races you need to train.  Our faith walk is no different.  Life is going to throw all kinds of trials at us, and if we aren’t training in between trials we will hit that wall!  Our flesh desires things that we as Christians are called to walk away from and the world is loud.  Without daily time spent one on one with God His voice gets quiet as the world gets louder.  We train for these trials by spending time alone with God in prayer, praise and study.  Trying to live your life from Sunday to Sunday without any quiet time with God is like waking up one day and running a marathon without ever having learned the discipline of running, it's crazy!

Galatians 5:24

Those who belong to Christ Jesus have nailed the passions and desires of their sinful nature to his cross and crucified them there.

We live in a broken world.  It is not how God intended it, but with that first sin came destruction to the way things should have been.  There are natural disasters, children die, loved ones get sick, there is mental illness taking hold of lives and evil spreading around the world.  This was not Gods design, but when sin entered the world it broke the world.  Not to say we are without hope, because we have much hope! God provided a way for us to spend eternity with Him through His Sons death and resurrection.  In the mean time this broken world is our temporary home and we will face trials.

Psalms 84:11

For the LORD God is our sun and our shield.  He gives us grace and glory.  The LORD will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right.

Colossians 1:21-22

This includes you who were once far away from God.  You were his enemies, separated from him by your evil thoughts and actions.  Yet now he has reconciled you to himself through the death of Christ in his physical body.  As a result, he has brought you into his own presence, and you are holy and blameless as you stand before him without a single fault.

When you take time out for God, He has the opportunity to encourage you and to guide you.  To open your eyes to the things that He wants to show you that help you prepare for a trial that may be coming your way.  God has all the answers, although He may not share every one with us, but He knows what He is doing none the less.  There is no answer for why loved ones get sick and die or why cyclones rip apart nations.  Sadly it is just part of the broken world we live in.  Everything does not happen for a reason, but God will get us through everything if we take hold of Him.

Romans 8:38-39

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present not the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I used to be one of those people who didn't feel it necessary to train for anything.  I didn't train for races and I certainly didn't train my faith.  I trusted in myself when I had to face these challenges and I came up short!  You can't run a race untrained!  You may finish, but it can leave you injured and it certainly won't be the best you could have done.  You can't get through life without faith training.  It's impossible to make it through all that we face in life without God helping us.  You may think that you can do it without God, but you are missing out on so much.  You aren't living up to your potential and in the end if you don't come to God you will spend an eternity separated from Him.  God knows us intimately, He created us for a specific plan and purpose and if we don't seek Him we may miss out on things He wants to show us about ourselves.  When we are living for God, He is constantly changing us and molding us into His new creation.  We can't do that without being in a living relationship with Him!  I would never expect my marriage to thrive if Ryan and I didn't talk daily.  In fact when he is gone for extended periods, which is common for a pilot, you can feel the bit of separation of intimacy that occurs rather quickly.  It's then important to get back into communication so that we can stay connected and continue to grow with each other.  It is the same with God, we need to maintain a daily relationship to grow intimately with Him.

Psalms 16:8

I know the LORD is always with me.  I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.

People are desperately searching for purpose in this life.  They feel broken and lost and they are hurting.  We have people so broken that they don't even accept their own God given gender.  We try to mask the brokenness by getting others to support us in our broken state, but there is nothing in this world that can satisfy what was meant to be filled by God.  The rise of new churches teaching that "God just wants us to be happy so we should do what we feel like doing" just shows how broken we are.  God is not so concerned with our happiness, He is concerned with our eternity and we are to be very careful of false teachings like these.  

When I found out that I couldnt bear children part of my identity broke.  Instead of finding myself in God I tried to find myself in relationships, drinking, and promiscuity.  Nothing filled that void.  I even altered my body attempting to make myself more attractive since my empty womb left me feeling like nothing and doubting that any decent man would ever want me.  I regret the way I tried to change myself instead of letting God show me who I was.  I hurt over the things I did trying to feel like a whole person.  I hate the ways I harmed myself and others with this self destructive behavior.  It wasn't until I let God fill the hole that was in me that I finally felt complete.  I didn't need to get drunk to feel complete, I got drunk to numb the emptiness, but God made me feel complete.  I had sex to feel accepted, only I felt more worthless after, but God made me feel desired.  I lashed out in anger because of the deep sorrow I secretly faced, but God responded with gentle love.  These wounds that we carry as part of this broken world cannot be filled by money, success, sex, relationships or any other earthly thing.  God is meant to fill them, and the only way He can do that is to get really personal with us.  He gets personal with us when we take the time to get in a place of worship and prayer and one on one with Him.  You can't prepare for the trial if you don't take the time to train!

Colossians 1:17

He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.

Revelation 21:4

‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes.  There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

Meet with God every day and watch how those trials get easier to navigate.  You're still going to have that one "race" every now and then that really kicks your butt!  If you are spending time with the LORD every day then it will be something you grow from, not something that beats you!  Our final destination is not of this world, we are just passing through.  We need to prepare for eternity and God will show the way!

Philippians 4:13

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

The Eye of the Storm

As I sit here staring at the computer screen I just don't know where to begin.  For the past few days I have been reflecting on what we just went through and I knew that writing about it was going to be a challenge, mostly because its impossible to put into words the experience we just had.  I have to try though, I need to write down the emotions of the day, the experience so that I never forget what it feels like right now, to be grateful for everything and to have your emotions so raw that nothing holds back the intermittent tears for those who faced so much worse....





On February 20, 2016 a tropical Cyclone named Winston came to Fiji.  This powerful storm was a Category 5 cyclone and has been rated as the 2nd strongest cyclone to ever make landfall (based on wind speed).  Winston took 2 shots at us prior to February 20th but both times it missed us, so I think by the 3rd time it was hard to take the storm too seriously, sadly that would probably be the downfall for some.  Winston came at us the 3rd time and things got really scary really fast.  The cyclone hit Nadi area around 8pm, at least that's when we really started to feel it, that was also when the power went out.  This storm coupled with the darkness of night made it all the more terrifying.  We had stocked up on supplies, we had prepared, but nothing can prepare you for your first cyclone.  With no power and the winds raging outside we put Ella Mae to sleep in our bedroom so we could all stay close.  The storm shutters were up on most windows but our bedroom window opposite our bed has bars for protection so I could see outside.  Our giant trees were bending like twigs whipping back and forth violently.  It was terrifying that at any moment one could crash into the roof exposing us all.  I laid in bed wide awake, my heart pounding in my chest as the freight train roared by.  The storm was so unbelievable loud, and it is indescribable.  For the first time in my life I knew that there was no way to protect my family, that I had to have faith.  We live on the second floor of a sturdy brick house and that is such a blessing, but with winds nearing 200mph the roof could be ripped off at any time.  I prayed through the night, and God comforted me.

We have a covered porch that wraps around two sides of our house and an enclosed stairwell that is somewhat protected from the elements.  We love our fur family, and I was already struggling with knowing my horse was braving the elements on the side of a hill and now we had Treasure to deal with.  Treasure is an outdoor dog, she lives outside and only comes in for short periods when we are watching her every move.  She is still a puppy so she loves to destroy things like shoes and toys.  With the storm on our doorstep Ryan felt that she would be well protected in the stairwell, I completely disagreed.  We tried bringing her inside and locking her in the bathroom area but she barked constantly and was way to worked up.  My heart was heavy taking her back outside, so I went out with her.  In hindsight this was stupid, I could have been hurt by flying debris, but I felt horrible for keeping her outside.  The winds were like nothing I could even explain, they were so strong they made walking nearly impossible.  Finally Ryan came out and sat with her so I could take a break.  He came in after sitting with her for about a half an hour.  Ryan is good at latching onto peace, he doesn't panic, and so he went to bed.  He did admit the next day that the whole thing was very scary.  I, on the other hand, was not going to be sleeping, I just couldn't!  My dog was outside, my horse was outside, and this storm was a danger to everyone in its path!  I worried for my friends, for strangers, for those who had no safe place to be.

About two hours into the storm I made my rounds through the dark house to find flood waters flowing in from the ceiling in our dining room and living room and spraying in through the door and windows.  The wind was so strong it was driving rain in through every nook and cranny by sheer force!  I woke Ryan and we laid down towels in front of the door and tried to contain the waters.  We moved all of the furniture out of the way from the flow of water coming in through our ceiling.  Now I was worried that we really might lose our roof in these tremendous winds!  My heart was racing again as I began looking out the windows trying to figure out what part of the deck Treasure was on.  I found her by our kitchen where she was less protected but still safe.  My heart was breaking, I felt terrible for her but I didn't know what to do.  I lay back down in bed lifting more prayers up to God as I watched the trees continue to bend to the will of the wind.  There wind was deafening!  I read my bible and kept checking for cell service so I could send an update to worried friends and family but the cell service had been down since the power went out and I was unable to reach out to them.

Every half hour I would get up and make my rounds through the house checking the leaks and making sure that everything was secure.  Finally I couldn't take anymore.  I was way to worried about Treasure and I opened the door that nearly tore from my hands and screamed for my dog over the roar she came tearing up from the stairwell, wet but happy to see me!  I settled her in barricaded between the wall and the bed next to Ryan and my wet pup laid down and went to sleep.  The storm was screaming now, but I had at least the part of my family in doors that I could have so I tried to sleep.  The storm raged on us for about 8 hours, the emotions that I feel just thinking about it bring a lump to my throat.  I'm so happy that my sweet baby girl was oblivious to the danger.  I'm so thankful that God gave me enough peace to do what I needed to do.  I'm thankful for a husband who is the calm to my freak out.  I'm so thankful that God kept us safe.

The next day we finally got cell service and were able to reach out to those we loved and let them know we were OK.  We eventually got through to local friends either on the phone or through FaceBook, and it was a relief as they one by one checked in safe and sound.  I was delighted to hear that not only did the staff of Aviva Farms make it through OK, but so did my beloved horse!  I have not been able to get out to him yet, but I know he is in good hands.  Although the threat of floods remained the storm had passed and people could begin to piece together their lives.  That was the most terrifying night of my life, I pray I never experience anything like that again.  I am so thankful for everything!





We were without power for a few days but the kindness of our neighbors solved that problem.  They had a generator and they sent up a power line so we could at least have some light and a way to charge devices.  What a blessing!  As Nadi limped back to life you saw the hope and the smiles in all of the faces, thankful for what they had, thankful for their lives.  Everyone was extra generous with their "bula" greetings and you could feel the community coming together.  Ryan began to clean up the mess of a yard we have, and life began to move on.  Stores opened on generator power and eventually the power was restored to our neighborhood.  I was telling Ryan that a branch had broken and was obstructing the ability to use our clothes line, and our awesome neighbors heard us.  Without a word they climbed the tree and began to chop down the trouble branches with a machete.  The sense of community filled me with pride!  These beautiful Fijian people were glad to help a foreigner in their country without even being asked.  Our neighbors showed us what Fiji is made of, friendship and generosity!

It was so scary, I just can't say that enough, and yet I felt humbled as the village stories began to roll in.  The death toll that is now over 29 was as heartbreaking as the stories that went with.  A father who attempted to carry his 10 month old baby boy across flood waters while his wife was washed away who then lost the baby.  Now they must face life without their precious child.  The family who lost their son trapped by a fallen tree who bravely told them to leave him and find safety.  The women of a village who ran from one shelter to the next only to have roof after roof ripped off and in the end using their bodies to shield new born babies from the elements, fighting for their lives.  The stories keep coming in, each one more devastating then the last.  I know how scary this was for me and I was in a sturdy strong shelter.  I almost feel I have lost the right to say it was scary, I don't know what scary is, I don't know what it was like for these brave people exposed to the raging storm.  I thank God that he protected us and my heart breaks for those who lost everything!  There are two houses just up the road from us that both lost their roofs.  Every time I drive by I get choked up thinking about how scary their story must be, what trauma they have been through.  I wish I could fix it for everyone.  I think the most beautiful thing I heard in it all was the couple who lost their baby said they drew comfort from knowing that he was in a better place, they found solace knowing their baby was with God.

In a deep desire to do something, to help somehow I felt led to hold a virtual 5K race and rally for all who took part to make donations to help the people of Fiji rebuild.  I am so thankful for LIFE Runners who has allowed the race funds to be gathered through them and sent to the Fiji government account.  I am thankful for faithful teammates who are answering the call and needs of those who are recovering from this disaster!  I am most thankful to God who will continue to comfort those who mourn and provide for those who have need.  It is beautiful to see the world spring into action to help the beautiful people of Fiji!

If you are a runner and want to take part in our virtual "Cat 5K" please visit our FaceBook page for event details.
https://www.facebook.com/events/1109789175722442/

Chasing the Darkness

"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that.  Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." ~Martin Luther King Jr.

It's so easy to get overwhelmed.  It's so easy to get weary and tired.  It's even easier to give up, and that is exactly what the enemy wants us to do, to give up.  I'll admit that I am tired this week.  I admit that my body feels worn down and that my heart, at times, can be close behind.  But I want to say that God doesn't leave us there for long.  He is so quick to renew, refresh, and revitalize those who seek after Him!

I was supposed to run my 20 miler this morning, but yesterday at church I felt God calling me to a 24 hour fast and prayer time, to hold off on the 20 miler until tomorrow.  God knew my body needed an extra day of rest and recovery, and He knew I wouldn't break from my schedule on my own.  This was exactly what I needed!  I started my day off in the word and then Ryan and I took some alone time for a coffee date.  I think in the fasting state where we are more open to God, less resistant, He really brings us to a place we need to be.  At coffee I talked to Ryan about old childhood/young adult wounds that I have never spoken to another person about in my life!  Yes I talk to God about these hurts, but never have I shared this painful corner of my heart with anyone else.  It was a powerful release, to say it out loud.  After coffee I almost felt released from my fast, as if God only wanted me vulnerable enough to let go of that piece of brokeness in my life so I could see how deeply it had wounded me and then allow Him to heal it.  Although I will honor my fast until 6pm, I see clearly how God works so amazingly in those who are fully surrendered, and how fasting opens us up by using the "weakness" to open our eyes to what He wants us to see.

I had to drive to the grocery store after Ryan left for work (which I don't advise during a fast because everything looked so yummy).  As I was driving I witnessed the coolest thing.  The weather is crazy right now with the cyclone passing by and as I drove down the road I literally chased the shadow of a cloud.  My car was surrounded by the suns light and it appeared as though I was driving the shadow away.  This happened for about 3/4 of a mile and as I pulled out onto the main roadway I got goosebumps as God spoke to my heart.  He showed me that the darkness must literally flee from me because I have the light of Jesus in me!  It's a command!  It's not a suggestion!  The darkness MUST flee from the light of Jesus and His light dwells in me!

Ephesians 5:8
for you were formerly darkness, but now you are Light in the Lord; walk as children of Light.

John 8:12
Then Jesus again spoke to them, saying, " I am the Light of the world; he who follows Me will not walk in the darkness, but will have the Light of life.

John 1:5
The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.

Sometimes I struggle to feel like a new creation.  Sometimes I feel unworthy to the calling that God has put on my life.  It makes it hard to be bold when you don't feel worthy and so I am very aware that these feelings are the lie of the enemy.  I am so thankful for a loving God who doesn't just stand by and watch us struggle, but sometimes
when we need it He gives us real, physical illustrations of His promises.  Right now God is doing huge things in the ministry He has called me to and of course the enemy hates that so he tries to discourage!  I feel renewed and ready to face the next challenge!  I may have to run in the rain tomorrow, I may not have ideal circumstances surrounding my 20 miles, but I know that God will protect, guide and carry me every single step!  I am a light bringer, my job is to expose the lies of abortion, the lies of the devil, the lies that we have believed for too long.  I am the light because the Holy Spirit dwells in me and if God is for me no one can stand against me!

2 Corinthians 5:17
This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person.  The old life is gone; a new life has begun!

The journey for LIFE

Today the A-Cross America Relay kicked off in the US.  This relay is a powerful time of prayer, running, and raising awareness.  I love that I can be part of it by running remote relay miles here in Fiji to cover uncovered legs in the US.  I look forward to it each year and love logging these redemptive miles.  Today I had 8 miles to run and with a tropical cyclone headed our way I knew that I was going to have to make a decision.  I could put off running and wait until the weather cleared or I could put a smile on my face and run in the rain.  I chose the rain!  The fact of the matter is that I don't run for fitness, although that is a nice side effect, I run for God.  If I didn't run for God, for His purpose and His ministry there is no way you would see me out running on a day like today.  I run because its a gift and I am using it for His kingdom.  I run because it is a time of fellowship for me with God.  I run to be an example to the rest of my teammates here in Fiji, so they can see that rain or shine I'm ALL IN!  I run because I made a commitment to LIFE Runners and to God.

God provides, that is all I can say about it.  Although I ran for an hour and a half soaked to the bone I don't have one blister to show for it.  Praise God!  I have to run my 20 miler in a few days so I was worried that running in wet shoes would give me blisters that could make running the long run challenging, but God answered my request faithfully and protected my feet.  As I ran I couldn't help but think of the truth that we don't get ideal situations in life all of the time.  I can't remember the last time I ran a race that was in perfect weather.  I also know that women facing crisis pregnancies are surrounded by things that make their situation less than ideal.  The problem is that instead of finding solutions to the road blocks they are encouraged to take the life of their unborn.  That is not a solution, it completely bypasses what the problems were in the first place.  A real solution comes when we help women solve the crisis and still choose life!

NARAL threw a massive fit this week at a Super Bowl commercial for Doritos.  Their complete meltdown on the fact that this commercial "humanized the fetus" really opened the window of truth to those that think that people like NARAL have women's best interest in mind.  That simply isn't true.  See NARAL has lost touch with reality!  Doritos was not pushing an agenda, they weren't speaking a pro-life message, they were trying to sell Doritos.  Truth finds its way into the open in such random ways simply because it is truth!  Doritos wasn't trying to "humanize fetuses' because there is no need to humanize a human!  Fetuses are human and that is an obvious fact that no one except these short sighted abortion advocates can't seem to understand!  A fetus will always be a human, that is its very nature.  No need to humanize what is already human, that just comes naturally!  Pro-abortion advocates entire argument is based on their emotional points and the only way to continue that narrative is to de-humanize the unborn.  They cannot accept that the unborn are human until the mother decides that they want the unborn, but science doesn't work that way, its not emotionally driven.  At the moment of conception a unique brand new life starts, that is not an emotional conclusion, that is not a religious belief that is scientific fact!

The same way that the protesters didn't come out in mass groups this year to the pro-life marches and walks due to weather is the same reason they can not win this!  We are fighting for life and we will defend it until every single life is safe.  We have the staying power because we know we are standing for truth not emotion.  We truly do "love them both" and we stand for the women and men broken by past abortions, we stand for the siblings who are missing a brother or sister, we stand for the pregnant, alone and scared women who feel trapped by circumstance.  We stand because we are called to and we cant back down!

2 Timothy 4:2
Preach the word of God.  Be prepared, whether the time is favorable or not.  Patiently correct, rebuke, and encourage your people with good teaching.

Standing up for truth is not something that we feel like doing, its something we are commanded to do.  We don't get to pick if the time is right, the time is now and always.  We stand peacefully and patiently to continue spreading the culture of life, but we will not be pushed around, we are also called to rebuke these wrong ideas.

So for the next 40 days LIFE Runners all over the world will put on our bold blue jerseys proclaiming "REMEMBER the Unborn, Jer 1:5" and we will walk run and pray in the rain, in the wind, in the snow, in the hot and in the cold because this is our mission and the roads are our mission field.  Until every child is safe in the womb and every woman is protected from the lie of abortion.  Women do not achieve their dreams by destroying life, they don't get ahead by denying their body's ability to foster the miracle of life.  Women get ahead by facing difficult circumstances and standing tall in the face of the struggle, and we will be there to stand with them!  We don't end abortion by making it illegal, we end abortion by removing the need!  We end abortion by changing the hearts and minds of every last man and woman who are blinded to the truth that life is never a mistake!

All IN Christ for Pro-LIFE!